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| So yeah everything is finally starting to look up for me and I can't help but get excited. My classes start Monday, so I'm scared but also excited. I was in a really bad funk for awhile and I was constantly second guessing myself and not sure that I made the right choice to come down here, but I'm starting to feel like I did the right thing. I'm giving my self the chance to pursue the one thing that will truly make me happy with my life. I've always loved animals, and if everything works out the way I want it to I can have animals in my life everyday. And not just cats and dogs but tigers and the exotic ones. I just want this dream as a zoo vet to work out. Right now my life has two choices. One will be that I will be good at this and everything will work out and I'll be able to get through the next 4 years, and get into vet school making my dream that much closer. Or choice number two where everything falls apart, I fall on my face, and I just prove to my mom that I can't do this. I'm hoping for option number 1, so we will see. | | |
| So yeah went on a job search today hopefully I'll get lucky. I hate to leave Sears cause I'm a lifer but the pay cut and the hours cut just won't let me stay. Oh well maybe it will help me adjust more down here. If I get another job I won't be reminded about the best people I've ever met that I had to leave behind everyday when I see the big Sears logo and walk into the store. | | |
| I don't know if I can keeping do this. I guess I was fooling myself when I thought I could make it through all of this. I really just want to turn back and start over, and wish that none of this would have ever happened. But you can't take anything back and now I just have to deal with all this pain. The hardest part is knowning that I brought all of this myself. I should have listened when people told me not to do this and maybe I would be better off. But at the same time I'm glad I did this because maybe over time everything will start to make sense again. I'm in a neverending battle against my mind, and I have no clue how everything is going to end. I guess all I can do is wait and see what direction my life takes next, and hopefully I will see that I made the right choice. It's just hard. This probably makes sense cause I don't think anyone knows what I'm babbling about but it helped me a little I think. | | |
| Hey Everyone!!! Its been awhile, but I'm still here. Got all settled in my new place down in College Station and just having fun being on my own. Super Bored at the moment because I don't start work till Wednesday so I'm not sure what to do during the day. I've done a little exploring found everything I needed, but thats about it. Maybe I'll finally get my camera developed..I really should I want my pictures of Anthony Rapp at the book signing. I don't know how much I'll be one here cause a few friends of mine got me all into myspace so check me out there. And if you want my address, email me or something and let me know and I'll get it to you. | | |
| Well I'm hitting the road in about half an hour and then I'll be gone. Its been fun but now its time to move on...I guess. | | |
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